Looking back at old blogs (my xanga...wow, so long ago!) it was neat to read where I was, where God had me, how I put situations and feelings into words. I miss that in a way. Being honest and getting it out, not putting up a shell of "perfection" but being real, asking hard questions, facing hard things.
I feel like an all-out war has been going on inside me lately....trying so hard but getting shoved down. It's such a weird time in my life right now I just can't even describe it. What do I do, what do I say, who should I confront, who should I just love, how can I forgive, and will I ever forget? Those questions burn in my mind daily. And the one answer I always come back to? Jesus Christ.
Cling to Him, spend time with Him by praying, reading the Word, clinging to Truth. THAT is what's important, THAT is where I will find peace, answers to my questions, love for those it is hard to love, forgiveness for wrongs long past that I wish I could just push back in their face, true joy that will carry me through every day good or bad, and contentment with what God has allowed in my life. It sounds simple. So hard to do. But it IS the answer. He is my everything.