Looking back at old blogs (my xanga...wow, so long ago!) it was neat to read where I was, where God had me, how I put situations and feelings into words. I miss that in a way. Being honest and getting it out, not putting up a shell of "perfection" but being real, asking hard questions, facing hard things.
I feel like an all-out war has been going on inside me lately....trying so hard but getting shoved down. It's such a weird time in my life right now I just can't even describe it. What do I do, what do I say, who should I confront, who should I just love, how can I forgive, and will I ever forget? Those questions burn in my mind daily. And the one answer I always come back to? Jesus Christ.
Cling to Him, spend time with Him by praying, reading the Word, clinging to Truth. THAT is what's important, THAT is where I will find peace, answers to my questions, love for those it is hard to love, forgiveness for wrongs long past that I wish I could just push back in their face, true joy that will carry me through every day good or bad, and contentment with what God has allowed in my life. It sounds simple. So hard to do. But it IS the answer. He is my everything.
3 comments:
Your pics of you and Mark are so sweet. Makes me tear up... :)
Oh gosh, I just can't think about it.....thought of y'all earlier this week and totally started tearing up...
Girl, I just saw your post today! I love the picture of you and Mark laughing! Oh it brings back good memories! I miss our days of hanging out!
Girl, I will be praying for you because I know that each stage of life brings it's own challenges with it. I know that life is tough for you at times right now. I'm sorry that you are hurting but I'm glad to see you clinging to Jesus and the Cross. Christ is truly our only hope! Don't ever forget this!
I love you dear sister and friend!
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